So I set myself on this project of putting up a photo a day for a year. I was curious about what I’d do with it—some people end up doing very artistic and creative things when they give themselves this task. Would that be me? Would it just become a document of the year? What would it be?
It didn’t turn out to be a great artistic project. I am creating art elsewhere, so I didn’t have an unmet need to create that was filled here. It also didn’t turn out to be much of a document of the year. Most of the pictures are of insignificant moments: me on the train, me on the street, me at my desk. You can tell when I’m on vacation—or I can, at least—but that’s about it.
Instead, it turned into an exercise of exploring my face, with its crooked nose, dark eyes, curled mustache, cheekbones, and foofy beard. Also, my body, which I hated for years and I’m still learning to be comfortable with.
A lot of the photos were me trying to look good—a vanity project, I guess—and I received some nice compliments (thank you Tumblr). My pictures were occasionally reblogged on people’s “hot guy” Tumblrs; what more could I ask for? Someone even said he’d like to jizz on my chest. On the one hand, this was crude and it felt weird to be straight-up objectified (especially for a photo with my head cropped out); on the other hand, it is still a compliment in a pretty deep way: a stranger found my body sexually appealing.
There’s a reason I didn’t attach my name to the project, though some of you do know who I am: freedom in (semi-)anonymity. It wouldn’t take too much sleuthing to figure out who I am, so I didn’t post anything I’d mind being identified with me, found by a potential employer, etc. Still, I was freer than I would have been if everyone had known it was me.
I’m glad for this project to be over. It got to be onerous after a while. But I’ve come out of it with a little more acceptance of how I look, and some pretty nice looking pictures. (Also, some weird ones.)
(Also, a side note: how appropriate is it that I did this project in 2013, which was eventually declared the Year of the Selfie? So very tapped into the zeitgeist I am.)
Thanks for reading! Feel free to pass me any comments via my Ask Box. Feel free also to say nothing, and let this year of photos pass into obscurity.